Quotes from Anais Nin

A ansiedade penetrara em seu corpo e se recusava a se espalhar por ele. Os buracos prateados de sua peneira contra a mágoa, que lhes haviam sido outorgados ao nascer, obstruíram-se. Agora a dor se alojara dentro dela, inescapável.

My mother won't live any longer in the house of a person capable of writing such a "dirty" book as my study of Lawrence.

Anaïs, it makes me weep, your Journal. It makes me love you beyond words.

Sunshine is only a restorative—not a stimulus to work. I would write more but I am ashamed to ask for more paper. Love. Henry

And I grew in depth through sadness and self-doubt.

I share with Henry an anger not at the imperfection of women, but at the foulness of living itself.

She says she is Irish—Nell O'Connor, but she was born in Latvia and talks like a Greek.

Su belleza me embargó. Mientras permanecía sentada frente a ella, me di cuenta de que sería capaz de hacer cualquier locura por aquella mujer, lo que me pidiera. Henry se desvaneció. Ella era el color, la brillantez, lo extraño.

Call me up as soon as you find time to come, or we can meet in Paris and have a talk. Next week almost every afternoon I'm posing for a Russian painter in Montparnasse.

Don't tear anything up: it creates blanks, silences—like the dashes of [Paul] Valéry.

It will be a she, too. I am tired of that "I," the weak I, the over-audacious I, the aggressive I, the timid I, the I of the Chinese language signs. I swallowing all my letters. Swallowing some of the notes.

Can you read this ink, made of distilled Andalusian blood?

Tanto para ti como para mí el momento más sublime, la más intensa alegría no la alcanzamos cuando son nuestras mentes las que dominan sino cuando éstas quedan anuladas, y ambas quedan anuladas de la misma manera, mediante el amor. June ha anulado nuestras mentes...

Su papel en la vida la tiene absorbida. Sé muy bien por qué: su belleza le acarrea dramas y acontecimientos. Las ideas significan poco. Vi en ella una caricatura de personaje teatral y dramático. Disfraz, actitudes, forma de hablar. Es una actriz soberbia. Sólo eso. No he podido llegar a su interior.

To love anything, to appreciate anything, one has to live with it. Otherwise it has no meaning, no beauty.

Listen, if there are only two men in the world and one woman life is worth creating . . . there is life. The three of us can fight the tide of Spengler's asphyxiating gas—pessimism.

Što da radim sa svojom sre?om? Kako da je sa?uvam, sakrijem, zakopam nekamo gdje ne nikad ne?u izgubiti? Želim se spustiti na koljena i pustiti da pada po meni poput kiše, skupiti je u ?ipku i svilu te je ponovo stisnuti uza se.

Al final de la velada, yo era como un hombre, estaba profundamente enamorada de su rostro y de su cuerpo, que prometía tanto, y odiaba el ser que los demás habían creado en ella. Los demás sienten gracias a ella; y gracias a ella, componen poemas; gracias a ella, odian; y otros, como Henry, la aman aunque les pese.

And. the page on the "I" and "he"—the double motif—is really superbly done. "Have I invented him? Am I talking? Am I what he is saying?" And when he tells you to shut up because you are deforming your own thought. Very beautiful.

Henry no puede hacer que la ame menos, pero sí puede atormentarme haciendo que aparezca más irreal, más desinteresada, demostrando que June no existe, que sólo existe una imagen, inventada por nosotros, por la mente de Henry, y por mi poesía.

Anaïs, I can't say much now—I am in a fever.

He was furious and hurt to think of a Nin woman having been within reach of those Jews with their tongues hanging out etc. But I told him it didn't hurt me—I wrote a novel!

You are an "homme complet" That is why he is so intolerant of neurotic art and artists.

What you are trying to do is a piece of art that is perfect in itself as art and yet retains the imperfection, the human fragmented, chaotic characteristics of a diary written on the spot in white heat. I don't know whether it can be done. It's a problem.